i hate you, but i still hope that you are well. don't even know what i'm thinking right now, today i feel like i had lived everything allover again, when i hear your voice, i'm no longer strong. actually i thought this was all over, untill today. why did i even call you, is it because i still care how you think about``````` why did you answer the phone, is it becase youstill care what i think about? no, it can't be true, it's over, atlest to you, you are getting married right,i can't believe it. you are the person who i thought would never change. but again i still have no idea how the world is spinning.

 

               why did you call me back? why did i have to hear the ringtone? why hav't i delete it? i hate changes, you may say" you are the one who changed most!!"  that's right, i just i like every thing and everybody to stay where they are, so i can always get to them whenere i want, yes, i'm selfish, maybe i'm really just a child who where never grow up. many days i had hope one day you would call me , so i can hear you ring tone again, and knowing it's you. when can i get over it, i have to get out of here. and stop thinking about all the shit.

 

                as i sit here with tears runing down my face, i know i got stop this, what we had it's over... it's over...over...             really, right? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, there i go again, i have to get out of here, should i really say bye to the you that's in my heat?

 

                maybe just today, maybe just because i'm drunk, i wrote all this...i want to say so much more, but i think this is it, it's enogh, i need to rest!! and stoping hoping, stop thinking,

我不想去想,不敢去想, 想她躺在你怀里的模样, 我真得太傻,太傻, 还许下你会回到我身边的愿望!!